夢の物語

mokomichi~lol

2007-05-20T15:54:00.000+10:00

今次係...mokomichi...!!!
係好耐之前0既一個夢...
講咩...唔...可唔可以話唔記得啊??? :p
發夢佢係個郵差...(咁講會唔會比人打??? lol)
其他真係唔記得...

...mr.余文樂...

2006-11-07T17:39:00.000+11:00

十幾個鐘頭前...先話...近排無夢發...點知...

佢又來了...- -"

邊個?!

知唔係...又係佢囉...

今次...好在無咩令人滴汗0既事發生...(好在... :p)
上次去睇蛇呢單真係有0的那過...- -"

今次...話題: 郭富城架 Zonda F...lol...好怪...同余文樂講關於郭富城架車0既0野...佢個look仲要係initial D著住件黑底黃間0既adi風褸...

事源...我係夢到我個frd同余文樂傾緊計先...之後我加入...就無啦啦講到Zonda F...我講Zonda F...佢就無啦啦0係度笑...佢一笑...我就嚇醒0左...汗...

係因為近排睇initial D太多???但我部DVD機都壞埋...一排(好幾日 :p)無睇啦...而且...睇initial D都唔係睇佢啦... :p 期待initial D套戲0既第二集唔知邊個做啟介呢...FD >~< ...我0既最愛要出場了嗎???(我愛0既係架車... :p well...我承認我都鍾意啟介啦...^^) 不過有種不祥0既預感...做啟介0個個會係一個我唔鍾意0既演員... @.@

當然仲有動畫同漫畫...(swot vac直至開始考0既第一個禮拜就睇晒漫畫0既第1到33期...- -")

夢想...嫁比一架FD...請refer to...漫畫裡面恭子剛剛出場0個時佢個frd講的... :p

雙魚無夢...

2006-11-07T03:54:00.000+11:00

近來...忙到要死...考試...

用似48小時先當一日...

唔知目訓0左多...總之都係天光先目訓...

累到死...

想寫0下夢...都無夢發...唉...
無夢0既雙魚座...就好似我而家咁...

考試...OMG...

2006-09-26T17:55:00.000+10:00

確實係好 - -"...竟然發夢遇到考試...

壓力太大嗎???唔知啊...因為我其實係見到我個frd考試...唔係我自己...唔知咁又代表0的咩呢...

事源係發夢同幾個中學同學0係個試場外面...突然間聽到佢0地講話...

"用右手拑緊計數機0個個咪係阿邊個囉..."

抬頭望向佢0地指住個方向...就見到另一個中學同學0係入面考緊試...佢拑計數機真係好快囉...好嚇人... :p

近排0的夢開始似返0的夢... :p
以前0個0的實在太make sense...好唔似夢...仲會有storyline添...汗...尤其0個0的明星夢...- -"

見過0既有...唔...余文樂,霆鋒,樂樂(方力申),juno,edison(lol...),kusano,ryo-chan...實在太多...不能盡錄... :p
有機會再將0個0的夢放上blog啦...

corolla sonny missing!!! lol...

2006-09-24T14:18:00.000+10:00

omg... 發夢corolla仔仔唔見0左... :'(

前堤: 趕時間返學中...
首先個場境係...我泊低0左佢...之後去0左一間好似BreadTop0既物體買0野食...買完之後就corolla仔仔0係外面失控...- -" 個brake好似唔work...就0黎跌落斜路咁...lol...

跟住竟然見到兩個同學(現在這個course的)...個男0既就上0左一個師兄0既車...個師兄就話送佢去搭小巴...- -" 另一個女仔...佢就叫我快0的開0左車門入去拉住個手掣先...

我好快咁跳0左上車啦...點知原來係個手掣唔work...lol...我就死踩住個brake囉...

之後我唔去到邊又停低0左架車...點知我一返去...連架車都唔見埋...
我一路沿住我開車0既方向...都係見唔到corolla仔仔...

最後...好明顯係嚇醒0左啦...- -"

中學同學...lol

2006-09-21T13:27:00.000+10:00

今次無呃你0地...真係講我0既夢啦... :p

發夢見到個好耐無見0既中學同學...lol...好奇...因為真係好耐無見...亦好耐無online傾過計...umm...所以唔好問我點解... :p

0係屋企(香港)後面個巴士站見到佢...唔知又點解話我係0岩0岩搬0左屋(癡線...邊會同一個屋苑搬三次啊...- -")...反正就係搬屋0既時候走0黎走去...之後突然間見到0係巴士站個人有0的似一個同學...原來真係...

走過去同佢講0左兩句...先知佢原來之後都要去外國讀書...lol...真係好怪...- -"

跟住仲恐怖...有架勁長0既trailer...竟然仲要係人推過來...好恐怖囉...明明係高速公路點會有0的咁0既0野?!推0既人仲要係一班女人...lol...個trailer比人推0左入個巴士站...佢0地跟住仲要轉唔到彎出返去...- -" 我個同學就走0左去幫手推囉...佢留低0左0的0野比我睇住...點知有0的一陣就比風吹0左去...omg...唉...就係好無奈唔知點交待...

好在佢都無咩...phew...哈...之後都算傾得幾開心...跟住...唔知點...就醒0左...lol...

之後竟然又發另一個夢見到佢...仍然係同一個地方...不過好ridiculously...佢係要搭小巴...但0個0度好明顯就只係得巴士...- -"

唔可以話唔係好夢...畢竟唔係惡夢啦... :p 而且見0下咁耐無見0既同學都係好事0黎0既...^^

PS 千祈唔好有人話我聽佢發夢都見到我...我會好驚...lol...因為尋晚的確有種好奇怪0既,心緒不靈咁0既感覺...lol

Faith~?

2006-09-14T00:04:00.000+10:00

sorry this is not one of my dreams... as in dreams at night...
this is my dream thou... in terms of the dream in "dream car/ guy/ whatever"... haha...
my dream is to live in my dream... lol... if u get what i mean... u got it... wahaha... if u don't... don't ask me...

i'm getting unsure if knowing more of a person is a good thing or not... the more i know... the more of the bad side that i'd've discovered... lol... is it just that i'm pessimistic??? i don't know... coz i can't read other ppl's mind... i just i don't understand why it is so difficult just to find someone that i could've trusted...

it's fair... i mean it... that ppl think about themselves 1st... it's nature... but the problem was that they are pretending that they're not... and as soon as they turn around their back... their "mode" seemed to have switched... one mode for talking to others and another for their own and many more different modes for different occasions... is it the only way of surviving in this world now??? or am i just expecting too much of them...???

it seems... the higher the expectation... the more the disappointment... i'm losing it... i'm losing my faith in this species... Homo sapiens... or perhaps... the faith has never ever been there from the beginning...

20060612 草野だ！

2006-06-14T20:23:00.000+10:00

由呢個entry 開始...
呢個blog個theme轉為講我0的夢...

明星夢...係發夢見到明星0既夢0既意思...

...今朝... 今次係...kusano...草野博紀...前 NewS member...
現在...不知所蹤...

內容嘛...有0的危險...哈哈...

無啦...只係記得同佢講電話...
就係咁咋...(其他不便透露...講笑咋...)

好啦...下次再講...

唔... 唔記得0左講...
佢唔係我偶像...所以係唔知點解會發夢見到佢0架囉...

下一個目標...仍然係ryo chan~(之前已經夢見過一次...不過...比鬧鐘叫醒0左...唉...)
再唔係...yasu都唔錯...

関ジャニ∞最高！

2006-01-21T16:59:00.000+11:00

just to drop by and say a few words... haven't updated for too too long...

but then... i have no idea why still a number of comments jumped up... well... don't think they're from my frds...

don't ask me who they are coz i have no idea myself... - -"

hahaha... will write more later... now i am supposed to be studying for parasitology... sigh... don't know how i managed to put myself in such a situation... just crazy...

man... pls give my holidays back to me... precious holidays... :'(

still a lot to do... argh... going crazy...

anywayz... hope to have good news next time i come back~

dream...

2005-11-28T14:44:00.000+11:00

dream... if my dreams ever reveal what i'm thinking... i'm quite sure i'm very confused myself even unconsciously...

i wonder why i see this person instead of another... and the one i dreamt of keeps on changing... exactly like my mind... changing all the time...

well... don't ask me why... i can only tell u that i only have short term memory... so... probably i can only dream of something in my short term memory... just what i see some time ago... probably has to be within that day... but not something any longer ago...

hmm... or maybe those things are just not impressive enough to roll in my mind again and again??? i don't know...

or have they not hit my hippocampus just yet??? have not altered my emotions to a certain extent just yet???

man... i really don't know... but it seems that if i just let it be... it will just come round and round... never ending...

well... that's just me and i don't think i can do much abt it either... sigh... haha... probably enough for now... go on when i remember any new dreams maybe... :p

Projection...

2005-11-13T21:59:00.000+11:00

"Projection"... once my mum told me abt what this word means in psychology...

It is sorta like this... ppl tend to assume their own thought as so-called normal... or assume others are havin' this same thought...

Perhaps this is why... when two ppl whose personalities are alike... one tends to feel that the other person understands him/her so well... it may be just becoz the other person's actually thinking in the same way... and implyin' his/her own thought into the situation they're in...

So... after all... maybe... it's not understanding... it's just instinct??? lol...

This is so grey... erm... hehehehe... still I think... just stick with what makes u happy... whichever way will do~! lol~this is projection~!!! erm... no... i'm not assuming that u'll do that... I'm just tellin' u my choice~! :p

excursion to Melb Zoo...

2005-10-05T22:37:00.000+10:00

man... yes... we're going to the melb zoo for an excursion!!! yes... it's true!!! wahaha... felt like a primary sch student... getting excited whenever we see anything like an animal... hahaha...

well... but we turned out didn't have that much time spent on walking around looking at animals... haha... what's the point of going to the zoo then??? hmm... going to listen to the vets there sounds like a good reason for us... the red panda session's pretty good indeed... i like looking at X-rays... hehehe... ^^

and i love the reptile house~!!! and i found a kero lizard~!!! trying to get the approval to put the pic, copyrighted by 不留心家姐... hehe... and the monster's freaking cute... esp when it wanna climb up the glass but couldn't... wahaha... so cute man... although it's venomous... well... cute things are mostly poisonous... hehehe... :p

anywayz... enough for now... feeling tired... hahaha... need to tidy up my notes a bit too...

driving, driving, driving!!! hehehehe...

2005-09-24T13:27:00.000+10:00

yeah... driving!!! haha... i love driving... wahaha... i'm going crazy... hahahahaha... (sweating...)

but it's only when i'm alone... when driving sb else... there's a responsiblity there... frds are giving their trust... giving their lives in my hands... so i have to drive safe... and of coz the car'll be heavier and thus takes longer to stop and acc... hmm... ie... less fun already... haha... sorry... i dun mean i hate driving ppl (in fact, i like driving ppl............................ mad... hahaha)... it's just a different way that i drive when i'm driving some other ppl... haha...

everybody knows that i drive fast... haha... but i never speed indeed... hahaha... but i mean... well... one have to step all the way on the accelerator in a manual car... u need the accelerator all the way in... when ur foot leaves the clutch... well... in fact... not necessarily... just that it feels so much better and smoother... hahahaha... and of coz... stop accelerating when u reach speed limit ppls... hahaha...

well... i'm really going crazy now... hahaha... i enjoy driving... but sometimes i feel like i'm nothing more than a driver driving ppl around... yeah... get me... ask me to go... coz ppl want me driving... hahaha... maybe i should feel proud of that... hahaha... yep... give and take... and i guess driving is the only thing i can give... haha... apart from other destruction... hahahahaha...

with my corolla sonnie... haha... so much more independent... i dun need ppl to drive me back home... dun need to carry heavy stuff from super for such a long way... good... hehehe... what am i thinking??? no more complaint... enjoy life... enjoy driving... hahahaha...

2005-09-12T23:05:00.000+10:00

wow... how lucky was that??? couldn't find a parking space apart from the carpark near Baillieu (spelling?) ... oh my god... never felt that main campus of melb uni's so big... hmm... luckily we didn't have our own bogu to carry with us... :p but of coz i want my own bogu... no money!!! :'(

i reckon this was my lucky day... never ever... had this happened before... hmm... thanx to the horoscope from the sun... haha... i thought i would be quite lucky... where has my guardian angel gone??? well... just kidding... i have to protect myself... that's all... not the work of the angel... and i dun need an angel to indulge me, i can indulge myself pretty easily... so true... haha... but... the problem is... what/ whom i am indulged in now... hmm.. pretty good Q... i dun know... hahaha... :p

i hope i know what myself's after... then i can use all my might to chase after it... on the other hand... i dun wanna accept that there're things that i can't get/ achieve even though i've been trying to get it whole-heartedly... so frustrating... hate it...

and i'm a logical person yet i get distracted easily by my fluctuating emotions... so i dun like things being vague, blurred... wa... :'(

hmm... must be hormone surges... just ignore me... :p

PS... i never know that my hands are so big... :p (got a little scratch by the kote again...)

2005-09-09T22:58:00.000+10:00

very well... as far as how last wed's training's gone... i think i can't do much jigeiko any more for quite a while... (still... i felt dead without doing jigeiko) sigh... obviously my right wrist can't bear the force of any kinda pushing in exercises like jigeiko...

right... say that i shouldn't be using my right arm at all... but then... actually i didn't get this injury from kendo... :( hmm... pretty common injury from volleyball i guess... hmm... well, and the trigger this time... my new lovely rotating chair... obviously i twisted my tendon a bit (maybe... just a bit more than that...) when i was assembling my new chair...

i wonder if there's anything worse than having this just a week before grading... oh well... it should cope pretty well in grading i guess... just not that much for other vigorous exercises in training... hmm... i keep on thinking abt grading these days... that's strange man... usually this kinda things don't give me any sorta stress or something like that... but i just can't get it outta my head... hmm... afterall... it's my 1st kendo grading... even though the stuff's very basic... i would hope i can do my best... last time i was watching other ppl from my batch having their 1st grading... didn't look difficult... but still... things are always easily said than done... esp basic things... they are things ppl tend to forget abt...

anywayz... even if i can't do jigeiko... i hope i can manage to go to the last two trainings, ie monday and wednesday trainings next week, before grading... quite sure that wednesday training would be ok... but monday training really depends on how our pathology prac goes... how many museum pots/wet specimens we have, how many histo cases we have etc... endocrine sys... hmm... 3 lectures on them... the prac can be quite long... argh... nooooo... but well... i'll try my best to get into the 1st group... :p

another very good thing abt this right wrist tendonopathy thing (i just made the term up :p)... that i can't turn the steering wheel with my right hand... imagine how this is gonna be like when driving a manual car... very well... i wish i can cope with driving with my left hand changing gear and turning the steering wheel at the same time... and the best thing is that... my beloved corolla baby have no power steering... wow... how nice it is when i'm trying to park... ppl who drive will know how this would feel like...

2005-09-06T00:54:00.000+10:00

i give up... i'm not... entirely not... a debating person... i can't pick wordings or whatever...

but well... "why bother???" quoted from keroro... (how long did it take u to learn this???) thanx so much... this is such a good phrase... no point wasting my energy and any mere signal transmission among my interneurones which can be used in other aspects... true... WHY BOTHER MAN...

i should teach my thalamus to screen all these spams... they will lower my IQ... these stupid things should never get to my cerebral cortex definitely... very well... solved...

go back to my world of animals... how good's that... they never imply... they listen... they're loyal... they never do harm unless they can benefit from it... animal instinct... to survive in the world... and that's all...

even a parasite knows what they're doing... they just want to survive... they have no brains... still they know where to migrate to...

2005-09-02T23:19:00.000+10:00

sigh... went dead after the UMKC Fundraising Night... :'( well... i mean i went sick...

caught a pretty bad flu... which has not happened... for like... 15 months or so maybe... sigh... running nose, coughing badly, headache and lost my voice for a while... most dreadful thing... even dead man said i looked dead!!!

omg... and i was actually like 75% recovered on that day... a bit of cough and stuffy nose... wednesday it was... hmmm... in fact was feeling quite ok... but well... possibly i just look like i'm dead when i'm alone... hmmm... yeah... dun look too good when i'm alone, yet i'm always alone... sigh... thanx for pointing it out dead man~i mean it really... :'( haha...

now it's like 90-95% recovered i suppose... only tiny bit of stuffy nose and cough left... hmmm... but that cough's very annoying... oh well... i know... i know that my immune system's working very hard already... and i trust my immune system... no worries there... i still get recovered (sort of) within a week...

start to miss kendo again... hmmm... probably should've gone to wednesday's training this wk... keroro did go even though he was sick too... and obviously in worse condition than i was... now... as a compensation... suburis at home!!! hahaha... and grading's coming in like two weeks or so... hmmm... my 1st grading... should work hard!!!

alright... enough of this tonight...

2005-08-27T18:19:00.000+10:00

UMKC fundraising night... hmmm... was very very very very good!!!

the atmosphere's good... although the place's a bit small really... everybody's clumped together... haha... not too bad actually... apart from the time when u wanna go to the washroom... :p and when u came back from washroom then ur original "seat"'s (i was only sitting on the floor, which turned out to be a good place... a good suggestion by our president) probably gone... hmmm...

the auctions are funny... hahaha... if i've got sb to clean my flat for me... they'll definitely go mad when they step into my place... hahahaha... what a mess... look like it's just got broken in... haha... notes/CDs all over the place... PS2 on the floor... laptop on a chair... there's not even an empty space for food on the table... :p the cleaning ppl's faces will go green i guess... :p

the bands are good... and the drummers are excellent!!! wow!!! if there's a poll for the best band in the night... i'll definitely vote for the last band... wow!!! nothing can be more interesting than seeing dead man singing and keroro playing guitar i suppose... hahahaha... climate was good, and it was loud enough... wahaha~~~ since i was so close to the amp~!!! NICE PLAY!!!

PS... keroro... what's the reward for holding the guitar for u??? waited for u to come back for so long when i wasn't feeling too well... :p :p i'm not going to do that for u next time... :p :p just kidding... haha... :p :p

2005-08-24T22:51:00.000+10:00

this wk's trainings... hmm... very good... i wonder how long since last time i managed to train twice a wk...

have been doing more basic stuff like footwork, basic cuts and receiving by shinai... really long time haven't done this... hmm... always good to go back to basics... but my left gastrocnemius m's really sore esp when doing okuriashi...

would have been better if we have some time for uchigomikeiko or some more basic cuts with men on before starting straight into jigeiko... found it a bit hard to change straight from just men cuts and kirikaeshi to jigeiko... and usually by the time my battery will be running low... or else the petrol would be at the level close to E on the meter...

well... honestly... it's not THAT tired... as compared with the time we didn't do footwork before all these... at those times, i really found myself couldn't raise my arms for the last kirikaeshi after jigeiko... but well... maybe i should push myself a bit more... i seemed just too relaxed no matter what's in front of me...

jigeiko... sigh... i'm still so bad... everybody just seems to cut so easily... perhaps there's something wrong with my kamae...??? or was it that i wasn't concentrating enough still??? hmm... it has been always so difficult for me to focus on one thing fully... argh...

my R wrist's not going right too... bad... i should've given it a good rest perhaps... but afterall i should use my L arm most of the time... if that's not what i've been doing... maybe i should take this chance to stop my R arm from doing anything... anything... including any school work too???!!! i hope... haha... :P but obviously it's absolutely fine to write and type and etc... not very good to use chopsticks though...

now apparently my R hand can only do what i dun wanna do... i think i have to stop driving for a while... thanx to my lovely corolla without power steering... then i can only get back to my PS2's GT4... :'( sigh... i love driving so much... very much... (apart from my petrol expense... :p) but well... of coz i enjoy sitting next to the driver relaxing myself on the ride... if i have the chance...

PS... looking forward to fundraising night on friday... woohoo...

2005-08-21T12:35:00.000+10:00

went to watch VKC yesterday... hmmm... pretty good... but a bit tired...

not that i went to compete... just that i woke up that early to watch... and that i didn't sleep early the night before... hmmm... was trying hard to finish off the micro essay... >,<>

well... have been waiting for long to watch shiai... turned out the VKC was very good of coz...

and of coz we're going for UMKC!!! the kyu team competitions were very exciting to watch... hehehe... and an extra that our team won!!!

Congrats congrats!!! woohoo...

the 4th match in the finals was spectecular... hmmm... everybody else seemed to be very excited too... yeah... it was a good match... would like to see who's gonna win really...

too bad that i still dun understand how a point is scored... why and why not... hmmm...

i didn't quite enjoy matches like pushing competition... that doesn't seem like spirit of kendo to me... pushing the opponent off the line... but well... there are times when ppl desparately wanna win...

anywayz... enjoyed the day and well done everyone!!!

PS... ben sensei's tsuki was spectecular!!!

2005-08-14T00:31:00.000+10:00

how long since last time i wrote here... hmm... can't really remember...

well... have been busy??? hmm... not really... just that... didn't seem to have much spare time...

really want to focus on school work now... hmm... right... not to think too much...

and to enjoy kendo training every wednesday hopefully... a pity to miss last wk's training due to meeting with lecturer... but anyhow... it had been a good meeting... grateful... haha... (sweat... for those ppl who know why i was meeting my lecturer...)

so many interesting things going on in august... VKC... fundraising night... and more interesting stuff... bacteriology assignment... and VPH assignment... and path quiz...

sigh... i better get back to work then... gotta finish the bac assignment in 2 wks... hmm... actinomyces pyogenes...

PS... i saw a nice shocking yellow maserati spyder today... ^0^

2005-08-03T01:50:00.000+10:00

for a computer to work effectively...

u need all this stuff... CPU, RAM, HD... and all those input/output and the connection between them...

having a CPU fast like 10GHz when the RAM is 128MB...

well... yes, the commands will be done... just the matter of time by then...

however, when u wanna save something... to have HD of 1GB with a 2GB RAM...

no matter how fast the CPU or RAM runs... there's not enough HD space for the data...

just like what i'm like now... i have no idea how fast my brain works...

even though i understood them... these things just somehow... dun get into my long term memory...

1st wk of 2nd sem... yr 3...

2005-07-28T21:12:00.000+10:00

back to uni again... very nice wk it has been... sorta less hours relatively... i'd probably go crazy next wk... :(

back to kendo training... exhausting as it had been... but refreshing enough... was moving dreadfully slow... and couldn't raise my arms for the last kirikaeshi... sigh... oh well... better catch up... hmmm... need to train my physical self back to normal... after the ruin by the exam, and, the lazy holidays... my mental part couldn't be repaired at the moment still... must have been thinking of meaningless stuff too much still... and the fact that i've been leaving it out there doing nothing abt it... haha...

oh well... better go back on track, start to try and concentrate on school work then... hope things to get better soon...

work experience @ dairy farm...

2005-07-24T02:28:00.000+10:00

hmmm... had a wk's work experience in jindivick... western gippsland... around 90mins from melb i guess... possibly a bit longer than that... maybe...

thanx to our host for showing us around, the nice food, ride to home and many more... ^_^

apart from the things actually learned from the running of a dairy business... i learned more of the life living in the country...

the interaction between each other in the neighbourhood... solely readily offering help to each other without expecting anything in return... sharing probs and finding ways to solve them together...

really appreciate this... i really hate that i can't do this myself... and i dun see this often in the society really... >,<

2005-07-01T04:40:00.000+10:00

幸福...不是要痛苦地追求的東西...

執著於身邊某一件事或某個人的時候...
也許一直在身邊,有一些其他人和事更值得被珍惜...

與其拖拖拉拉徒添幾分傷心...
還不如趁著回憶還是值得回味的時候說再見...

有開始...就會有結束...
不想結束...就不要開始...
這是我一直以來的信念...
悲觀...但可說是一種保護自己的方法...

如果少一點傷心...代價是少一點快樂...
而且不能只要快樂的話...那麼...
我寧願選擇兩者也不要...

2005-06-28T19:25:00.000+10:00

1st training after exams...

muscle pain...
hunger...
refreshment...

i wonder really... how many kirikaeshi's i've done... but well... a good warm-up exercise...

trying to do things slowly... to try and see if my right tarsal-metatarsal joint hurts... um... not too badly... but i'd have to do things slowly... and obviously i couldn't do things very fast anywayz not having trainings for abt a month...

well... things are gonna get better... just the matter of time... i hope...

and now the juniors are wearing men too... cool...

PS...
i think i need sb to help me do some stretching sometimes... maybe...
PPS...
u... no more existence in my dreams... not planning to dream of u atm... =P

PPPS...

um... let's have a guess... which part of what manga does this come from??? =P

2005-06-14T20:36:00.000+10:00

odagiri joe... オダギリジョー... 小田切譲...

he's probably the 1st... and till now the only actor i got hooked with at the 1st time i watched his drama... um... can't really remember which one that was... either "beginner" or "天体観測"... most probably "beginner"...

i still remembered i had that feeling that this guy's got the talent, he's gonna be popular... just the matter of time...

yeah... after watching "kao" (quite some time ago... still watching now... the 4th or 5th time maybe... =P)... i got the proof... HE IS GOOD... and good looking too...

HE CAN ACT... that's what i'd say... he made me feel that he himself is exactly like that character... all those characters were so diff and yet... he still gave me that feeling... um... what else can ppl say abt that??? um... he is just good...

a pity that i missed "satorare"... must go back and find DVD's or something like that in december...

downloading "blood & bones" now... he's got an award for that movie... must see this... although i reckon i won't be able to understand it anyway... well...

2005-06-11T21:33:00.000+10:00

had my dinner when i was watching today's "iron chef"... feeling so hungry after watching even though i've eaten my dinner... >,<

lobsters!!! lobsters, man!!! although i think my stomach's not good enough to digest them very well... (so can't eat too much of them...) looked wonderful and i'm sure they tasted wonderful too... >,<

have been watching this quite regularly since... last wk??? =P and always forgot or just watched part of it in the past... but well... i like this show... 1st time seeing the challenger win... woohoo...

um... i wonder when the japanese and chinese cuisines are gonna be on... would be interesting to watch for sure...

2005-06-11T01:55:00.000+10:00

glad that today's exam's not TOO bad...

glad that this can still cheer me up a bit...

this means i have not totally given up on this...

i like this course i'm studying... but i just dun understand why i can't concentrate on studies... i opened the computer games and started playing even without myself realizing... >,<

there must be something wrong with my brain... bad memory, bad sense of direction, hands shaking badly (hate it when it can't stop shaking when i was drawing graphs in exam... yeah, and of coz the graph "shaked" too... -_-')...

miss u... grandma... especially when i was studying drugs acting on the cardiovascular system... if i know that earlier... if... if...

there're just too many things i haven't done with u that i feel regret abt...

2005-06-10T01:03:00.000+10:00

if there's always a component of truth in a lie...

there are too much truth in this world...

perhaps ppl tend to make a lie more realistic by putting some unrelated/ remotely related truth in it...

maybe...

i try to believe whenever i can... as long as it makes sense to me...

i just don't have the time to pick up which bit is true, which bit is not, what is the truth behind the faked bit...

2005-06-08T17:33:00.000+10:00

"party ppl around me, but i just could not fit in...

sitting in the corner, drinking cola, pretending it's a black vodka...

i talked to myself, i pinched myself...

well i survived till the end, but can i make it again???"

the pancakes - "i want to fly"

well describing what i would've done...

could not fit in... um... right... i just can't fit in this materialistic world... yeah... maybe... i'm materialistic myself too... that's why i'm thinking and assuming other ppl are materialistic... "projection" as it's called in psychology...

PS... oh man... i miss kendo trainings so much... >,<

dream... 夢... yume...

2005-06-05T15:30:00.000+10:00

之前有一個post寫過...

"夢で逢いましょ"

但估唔到原來真係成日發夢見到你...一直都只不過係我唔知...(真真正正訓得好0既時候係應該唔會記得自己個夢0既...)

發夢見到你...教我整0野食!?嗯...當然...最終都係你整啦...=P

之後問我同埋我另一個FRD去唔去放風箏...(0下???)跟住就打比你個FRD集埋一班人去...

仲記得你用都幾好0既廣東話講那個電話...我個FRD問係咪你Daddy或者mummy係香港人?

你好細聲咁話唔係...再講佢0地係邊度人...

其實我都唔係記得好仔細啦...咁上下啦...

嗯...好0丫...發夢0既時間比0左你...其他時間比返我喇...而且下次可唔可以淨係得我0地兩個去玩呢??? =P

方力申 "Be Good"

2005-06-04T16:14:00.000+10:00

recommended...

"ABC君", "密碼", "好走" ***

"ABC君"
喜歡上一個太受歡迎的...太有野心的...
"密碼"
做個仔細觀察你,破解密碼的金田一...
"好走"
分開...一定是因為不愛了...嗎???

"我們不是朋友", "石像", "你記得嗎", "自導自戀" **

"我們不是朋友"
給剛分手的朋友們...再見不再是朋友了...
"石像"
愛情需要堅持,等多久也在所不計...
"你記得嗎"
不相愛...只要回憶就夠了嗎???
"自導自戀"
決心要為自己喜歡的人去改變嗎???

exam schedule...

2005-06-03T20:06:00.000+10:00

look at this spectecular schedule...

06/06 14:00 parasitology
08/06 09:30 physiology 2
10/06 14:15 pharmacology
14/06 14:15 AHM
16/06 09:30 pathology A
17/06 15:15 pathology prac exam
20/06 14:15 microbiology
21/06 14:00 microbiology prac exam
23/06 14:15 anatomy 2

yeah... this is our exam timetable... >,<
and yeah... there's nothing wrong with ur eyes...
9 exams we have...

more exams = good course?!
thank u very much man... -_-'

choices... >_<

2005-06-01T18:44:00.000+10:00

i still don't know... whether this is the right choice...

but after all... i've taken it and hanged around with this choice for a few years...

whether this is the thing i like... i have a choice... yet again... to get along with the previous choice as well as i can... or to blame myself for making this choice a few years ago...

nearly at a point of no return... obviously... with the second choice-making in front of me right now...

no point thinking abt that too much... just to enjoy life for now...

yep... and go on with studies... pls... be concentrating on studies... (murmur to myself)

over heat... -_-'

2005-05-31T12:07:00.000+10:00

haven't written for a quite a few days already...

have been struggling with my DSL... =P thought there was something wrong with the network... it keeps on staying in the "acquiring for IP address" mode... and obviously it doesn't connect to anything... not msn, not icq, not even half of a homepage... >,<

and now that i've found out... probably that's becoz i've been online for too long... leaving the modem on for too long... and downloading things for too long... after i turned the modem off and let it cooled down for a while... it does work again... woohoo... =P

see??? that's how much i'm addicted to the internet... -_-'

swot vac... exams coming up... >,<

2005-05-28T00:00:00.000+10:00

one of my fave... tohato... ^o^ i love this face on the package...

some treats before exam???

yeah... gotta start preparing for exams... to study myself... i mean... haemonchus... man... I LOVE PARASITOLOGY!!! AND GOOD LECTURER WE HAVE!!!

addictions...

2005-05-25T00:20:00.000+10:00

i tend to get addicted to things easily... >,<
my addictions...

chocolate... hopelessly addicted... dark/milk choc... +/- cookies... but no nuts thanx...

internet & computer... on every day and night... downloading when i'm sleeping... staring at the screen for nothing apart from stalking and browsing... =P yeah... and some chatterings...

liking someone... um... i mean... just to like someone... not necessarily referring to the same person... in fact that changes all the time...

cars... i just love them... um... i mean sports cars...

animals... they are cute... i simply love husky babies... they are FREAKING CUTE...

nicotine... no... i'm not a smoker...
luckily... and i dun think my nose/resp tract can stand it... i should feel thankful for the air here... a bit better than air in HK... yet... still can't really just breathe with my nose...

anywayz... better stop here... or else it'll go on and on...
everybody good luck for exams!!!

right tarsometatarsal joint...

2005-05-24T01:33:00.000+10:00

a big thank u to myself... (applause... -_-") after wearing this pair of "nice" boots... i think i got my joint injured again... right... and again... no hope for the training today... (banging my head on the wall...)

well... injuring an old wound seemed always worse than having a new wound... maybe... maybe not...

although i wonder why it doesn't hurt at night??? well... i mean... in the evening... not an evening where i'm sitting on my sofabed watching tv... i did walk around and bring some snack... =P just kidding... i mean... i did move around... (and did bring some snack too... =P)

can't be much less that the amount i moved during the day... since i just sat in the lecture theatre having info stuffed into my head... (if they really got in... =P)
anywayz... recovery prosponed (um... i'm not sure abt the spelling...)... hoping for wed training... miss kendo... esp at a point when i neither do any footwork... nor suburi (my left wrist hurts too... -_-')...

obviously now i've got only one perfectly normal/non-impaired "limb"...

for those who didn't know much abt me... i got my right wrist injured when i was playing volleyball in HK... hurts sometimes when i'm trying to extract too much power from my right wrist... so... um... i'm glad that i still have my left leg pretty much normal...

i.e. preferred load-bearing limb=left H>right F>left F=right H
***H=hindlimb (hand) , F=forelimb (leg)
=P

true post kendo training camp blog... no more tricks... =P (15th sun)

2005-05-22T14:40:00.000+10:00

yeah... another morning getting up real early... yet... am i really awake??? i don't know... i guess... maybe... i have never been awake for all these years...

well... anywayz... go on with the camp stuff...

we gotta drive to the dojo today... since we're checking out from the hostel... and that we have everybody's breakfast in our cars...

had some chocolate before the warm-up session... it actually felt much better than without chocolate (like on sat morning... i can't have my stomach empty... esp before doing sports... =P)...

seemed that quite a no. of ppl were gone after sat training... (like... ben sensei and quite a no. of UMKC ppl too... -_-) um... getting less motodachi's... >,<

and we're supposed to have our "debut" shiai... well... very well... i got injured... no chance... -_-'

perhaps i could've called that a chronic condition... (ron??? need help with pathology...) i think the pain on my right 1st tarsal-metatarsal joint was accumulating... from the intense training on sat??? maybe... well... at 1st the pain was on my metatarsal-phalangeal joint... which one is the referred pain??? >,<

anyway... by then i was sitting on the side until seeing other ppl train... um... how devastating that was... seeing all other ppl doing what i really wanted to do... but i just couldn't continue... i dun wanna risk development of a long term injury becoz of the camp... (although it would probably be my 1st and last kendo training camp... ='()

very nice man... then after some snack and some stupid conversations... on our way back to melb... such a long drive... straight roads are boring!!! well... anywayz... i'd hope that i dun have to use my right foot too much for the drive...

and then i found that my left wrist hurts too... till now... >,<>,<)

devastating on... exams coming up... gan ba ru...

see a real cereal face... =P

2005-05-21T17:28:00.000+10:00

fun seeing a face like this in the morning when having cereal...

one can always find some fun no matter how boring life is... as long as u're in search for it...

i'm not kidding... this is really a piece of cereal... not a pumpkin face or anything like that... =P

true post kendo training camp blog... no more tricks... =P (14th sat)(2)

2005-05-19T20:07:00.000+10:00

2nd half of the day... 14th sat...

um... i think i was up to jigeiko??? i suppose so...

well then... there wasn't a big difference from what i normally did in jigeiko in trainings i think...

yeah... and i kept on having bruises... at the same spot again... must be something wrong with the way i block... or maybe due to the strength...??? =P

oh... right... i forgot to mention abt the "endless training"... um... as the one we go round and round when a number of motodachi's giving different openings... um... felt like a horse jumping... whenever i see something in front... i cut thru... dun know how many steps i've had in between...

obviously i missed some of the cuts too... -_-'

dinner time... got our fanta sours out... woohoo... and went on to the sleepy table... =P everybody felt like sleeping... =P while we're waiting for food... and what we've talking abt... i was too tired to put them into my memory...

drove to the supermarket... (got lost on the way...) to buy stuff for the breakfast... um... the staff there must be amused to lose 20 bottles of juice suddenly... and thanx to the youngest guy in the pile to pay for the two trolleys of breakfast we bought... (we all didn't/forgot to bring wallets...) =P

the room was dark when we got back... thought sb's asleep... so we grabbed our torch and tried to pack up... yeah... and we got all our stuff to the car and packed up...

took us quite some time to realize that there wasn't anybody sleeping... just that there's nobody in the room who's turned the lights on... -_-" and then we were laughing like mad...

got a good parking spot this time... to climb up onto the top of my corolla sonny and had a good look at the stars... well... but it was not as good as friday night... >,<
that's what'll happen in life all the time...

um... and i finally forced myself to bed... around 12 maybe??? unsure...

PS... saw a freaking cute husky baby outside vet school yesterday... really freaking cute... i want a husky baby... (yeah... i always wanted one...) =P

true post kendo training camp blog... no more tricks... =P (14th sat)

2005-05-18T20:39:00.000+10:00

um... nice... got up when the sky's still dark... haven't tried this for a long time... apart from those times i'm still up until the morning... =P

and we were still late... =P didn't mean to... but... well... sorry...

freezing outside... not too bad when we're walking to the dojo...

but really bad when we walked on the floor of the dojo... IT WAS LIKE ICE... >,<

and we're like walking and doing ayumiashi and okuriashi on ice... hmmm... my left calf muscle hurt... probably my okuriashi's still not relaxed enough... couldn't do so much okuriashi before stretching...

100s of suburi's each... um... dun know how many in total... very nice... got another blister... =P i just hoped that my shinai wouldn't fall off my hand when i was doing jumping men... =P

never felt that a breakfast has been that life-saving... i felt that i was lacking of glucose... =P and good fun writing (drawing) on the cups... thanx to capsicum for the "り" after my "car(che)" --> cross-over of chinese and japanese... =P

um... after breakfast a few more ppl turned up for training and ben sensei's here as well... woohoo... some more good motodachi's ^o^ and obviously i got a real good one... probably too tall for me... next time i must remember... no matter what... get a motodachi around my height... (to do more "normal" men cuts for my height... =P) and a motodachi who wouldn't hit too hard on my men... IT WAS PAINFUL... >,<

then i was hoping sensei would've asked us to change motodachi... but... as usual... my hope wouldn't've come true... >,<

waza's... um... haven't formally done them before in trainings... so... i just tried to "copy" from what the senior ppl do... impressed by their speed... (-_-' i want super slow motion... =P) but as sensei said... always went back to the basics... no point doing waza's if ur basics weren't going well...

kata... um... supposed to know 1 and 2... obviously a bit lost... sigh... i'm still so forgetful... >,<

jigeiko... um... maybe... i should continue tmr... it's getting long this post... =P bybye...

true post kendo training camp blog... this one is real... no more tricks... =P (13th fri)

2005-05-17T15:22:00.000+10:00

finally today... i'm gonna write the real blog for the camp... =P since i've finished the presentation today and had the test on monday...

abt the camp... maybe i should start from the beginning...

um... that was black friday... 13th may... =P obviously really black...

found out that my door wasn't locked when i got home... i was like... "what the..." felt like crying already... and since my home sweet home always looked like as if it's been broken in... (very messy that was... =P)

i thought my laptop and stuff like that must be gone... luckily(not quite a word for black friday i suppose)... as far as i know... i haven't got anything stolen...

what a relief... -_-' and obviously my vaio sonny's still on my desk making some distracting noises... and my new HP sonny's sitting still next to its brother... =P

yeah... then i was hoping that i could possibly be quite lucky on the day... maybe... then i was rushing to finish packing and had a shower before driving back to UMKC and grabbed my bogu (um... the one i've been assigned... not that it's mine...) and the ppl who are going on my car...

we started off a bit late... and met a fair bit of traffic on racecourse rd... but not too bad... then i was introducing "UMKC famous band the cobden negligence" to the girls in my car... =P as usual... all impressed by the laugh... =P

well... then things went fine until we saw the little fire star on the sky... while we were still wondering what that fire thing was... i mentioned abt black friday... and then we heard the laugh from my hifi... it was ultra scary... =P

finally we got to ballarat unharmed... with my nice and skillful driving... =P (see how a girl got her manual licence in one go ^0^ ... -_-'')

when we're heading for dinner... a new nickname was founded... yeah... a capsicum (red)...

in the end arriving at the hostel... i was attempting to climb on my car to look at the stars... but attempt failed... the sky was really beautiful... so i had to bend my neck and looked... and i saw something like a shooting star... took me quite some time to realize that it was indeed a shooting star... then i made a wish somewhat 30 secs after it disappeared... -_-"

and that's why... i think... my wish doesn't come true... =P

a pretty long post... i suppose it's enough for today... and i think i gotta wash some more clothes now... after the gi and hakama and some other kendo stuff i washed yesterday...

PS... blog for rest of the camp will be coming up in these few days... i suppose... =P

post kendo training camp...

2005-05-15T21:46:00.000+10:00

um... not many usable muscles left...

and gotta study for microbiology test...

post will be continued some time later... =P

(added 16/5)

still very sore... and my microbi group presentation's on tmr...

post will be continued tmr or the day after...

trick cha... let's see how many days from now i'll be finishing this post... ^o^

2005-05-12T03:05:00.000+10:00

obviously... the most devastating task for me...

to do a presentation in front of a lot of ppl... and in the form of a group...

i can assure u... it is worse than any other kinds of assignments... um... yep... for me only...

i'm just real bad at doing presentations or other kinds of performance on stage... frds... remember how i forgot my lines for drama???

i wonder how ppl can sing on stage??? well... real talence there... thank god... should teach me...

PS... my cerebrum's undergoing atophy... and obviously hippocampus' taking over...

PPS... right... apparently my eyes are not focusing any more... so... i'm going to have some REM sleep now... night~to whom i wanna say this to...

2005-05-09T22:54:00.000+10:00

after all... i still like ur voice better...

maybe... it's just becoz i heard it...

when comparing to some other voices that i haven't heard...

i think my short term memory is dominant for determining my feelings...

that's no good...

......

i dun know... i'm confused... @_@

maybe...

time... is the best parameter...

if something's long-lasting... it is gonna be long-lasting...

what rubbish am i writing??? sigh...

well... pls just ignore me... sorry for wasting ur precious time reading this stupid stuff... =P

PS... suddenly realize that @_@ really resemble my eyes... i dun mean that my eyes are that big... but i really mean that my eye bags are that big... =P

2005-05-09T00:03:00.000+10:00

逢いたい...

夢で逢いましょう...

aitai...

yumedeaimashou...

devastating...

2005-05-08T06:06:00.000+10:00

right... i had enough of it...

and i cut it today...

took me quite some time to make this decision... afterall it's been with me all these times...

devastating...

but... the darkest moment... is the beginning of the brightest moment...

life goes on... and on... and on...

there are always...

choices to be made...

decisions to be made...

facts to be accepted...

lies to be heard...

好人一個...

2005-05-06T03:26:00.000+10:00

今日vaio仔仔突然間彈0左呢首歌比我聽...

聽落又幾好聽咁...

有0的歌詞又好鬼入肉咁...

"能待你好,就是最大回報...
不必成為密友...對你都可以好...
你若然明天,身心安好仍然記得我...
換上個發亮微笑,報答已是夠多...
我只是路人...實在非親非故...
名字也未曾問...
人類自命高等...所以...借架車比你訓"

another pic from LSAH

2005-05-05T19:10:00.000+10:00

haha... he's so cute... he is a dog i saw in the Lort Smith Animal Hospital when i was doing work experience there during easter...

i think he's probably got adopted now... since he's so cute and lovely... especially the way his tail swings... ^_^

he was the very first dog i washed... has been really well-behaved... even though he's so afraid of the noise made by the hair dryer... (he was trembling all over and trying to escape from it and push his head to the wall...)

felt bad abt scaring him with the dryer... but he must be dried or else he's gonna catch a cold...

anywayz... wish u all the best... cutie =P

my new born baby boy...

2005-05-04T01:26:00.000+10:00

now that i've got another sonny... yet again... waha...

(right... i only have sons no daughters...)

woohoo... i finally got my HP printer sonny home... ^o^ lovely...

3 in 1... woohoo...

super happy... wahahahaha... luckily i was running outta food and drove to QV to buy some food... and then i met my HP sonny in big W... still in good price...

i think even my eyes are smiling... yeah... i suppose i really looked like a cartoon character by then... =P

i still remember the staff told me that it's gonna be 2 wks for them to be back in stock... the time when he told me until now's only 1 wk...

see??? something belonging to u will gonna be urs... just the matter of time... =P (come on... that's just a coincidence... -_- )

but... the prob is that... a person can hardly realize this before he/she's already owned that something...

that's why life's exciting... or devastating... maybe...

um... seemed to have got the habit from takuya kimura in "pride period"... to always say... "maybe"... a real good and handy word to use...

um... handy word... cherrie... that sounded strange... how can a word be handy???

cherrie: well... hey u dare to pick on me like that huh??? well... anyway... i'm in a good mood now and i'm not gonna be mad abt that... dun even think abt doing that another time!!!

i think i'm getting... kinda psychic...

sorry abt those who have been reading all these stupid blogs... =P

lost and found...

2005-05-02T00:21:00.000+10:00

imagine how u'd feel if u suddenly found something when u're in the depresssion becoz of losing that thing that u've just found...

it seems more delighting than when u finally got the thing u wanted very much...
on the other hand...

if one's to lose something... one'd rather not to have possessed it ever, not even for one nanosecond in his/her life...

it is devastating to lose something u treasure... IT. IS. DEVASTATING.

that's why i choose not to possess anything that i dun dare to lose...

bruise=internal haemorrhage?!

2005-04-28T19:02:00.000+10:00

it seems pretty true really...

internal haemorrhage... a closed wound... as in no exposure to the outside... damage to blood vessels causing bleeding...

bruise... force of impact causes breaking of blood vessels... probably the peripheral capillary bed or something like that... bleeding results... the purple-ish colour... deoxygenated blood??? =P

um... my conclusion... a bruise does not necessarily equals internal haemorrhage... but it may be considered one kind of it... perhaps... =P

well... i think this time... there's some petechiations as well... it's painful... x0

a normal wednesday...

2005-04-27T23:27:00.000+10:00

a very normal wednesday...

with classes from 9am~5pm as usual... and we finished early in our prac... great...

went home and prepare for kendo training... as in... around 15~20mins to get changed... =P

we had a bit of joint training with the beginners and then kirikaeshi then uchigomigeiko then jigeiko then kirikaeshi again...

um... same as before... got a nice bruise... but not under the kote this time... my right arm's fine... with my new wristband... my right thumb hurts...

well... that seems pretty normal in jigeiko anyway... i can just say i have a wrong way to receive men cuts... thanx to sb who then taught me how to block it... =P

with all these injuries, healings, ups and downs... life goes on...

and actually life's made of up all these things...

go on being myself...

sorry... i think i'm going mad on ppl around again... sorry...

ambition and aggression...

2005-04-25T21:57:00.000+10:00

yes... it's good to be ambitious...

and success always goes to ambitious ppl...

however... when ppl're getting too ambitious... that becomes aggression...

especially when u've just taken a big step towards success...

at this point... u feel that u're so close to success... and u wanna quickly achieve it...

u have to realize that the closer u get to... the more difficult to take a further step...

patience is critical at this point... or else... it is very easy to become aggressive...

things get hard to achieve when u're too aggressive towards them... one reason can be that ur sense's masked by ur want...

one does not always have to be sensible... but sometimes it's really helpful to stand back and think...

when u want it dreadfully... it gets further away from u...
when u feel that u dun want it any more... u'll notice that it's right in front of u...
that's life... inevitably...

PS... a little more faith... that's what i have to work on now...

woohoo...

2005-04-24T22:44:00.000+10:00

woohoo... happy!!!

happy that i finally finished my slide for my microbiology presentation...

hard job man... u can never imagine how much i hate abt doing presentations... =P

so reluctant to get started... =P sorry my groupmates... but i've finished it now...
woohoo...

watching "remote" by fukada kyoko and dohmoto koichi... one of my fave dramas... ^_^

i really like what fukada said in the last episode...

i'll try to write it in eng (after the VCD's translation to chinese)... (sorry abt my bad translating skills... =P)

"if u have done all these things for him... why dun u tell him??? why dun u ask him directly what exactly he is looking for???"

this is what fukada (kurumi in the drama) said in the situation where another girl (naomi) was abt to commit suicide... after revealing what she's done...

um... a long story behind that... i'd suggest u to watch the drama by urself rather than seeing what i can tell u with my limited eng... =P

staph feeding progess...

2005-04-23T21:49:00.000+10:00

my staph seems to be getting weaker after the "feeds"... and the skin around that area is getting less swollen... well... it's not that swollen before... but just not as "flat" as normal...

and now that the skin's getting smooth again... and not as dry and scaly as before...

wow... the feeding seems pretty effective then... =P although it's a bit expensive for two weeks' use... used 15.15... not 50.50... =P

go on until i've put the cream on for two weeks as the doctor said... ;)

go on... and go on with A LITTLE MORE FAITH...

lucky...

2005-04-22T21:35:00.000+10:00

um... the original post's moved to www.xanga.com/cher_e2004

liking the person who may not be liking u...

perhaps he likes sb else??? or just that he is not liking anybody at the moment???

for the former... it seems that there's no chance at all unless the one he likes doesn't like him (although that doesn't necessarily mean u've got the chance...) and thus this cycle goes on forever...

for the latter... there may be 2 cases... whether he's the sensible or "feeling-based"(sorry... running out of adj's) type...

i suppose for the 1st type... it may be easier... as long as he can't find any reason not to accept... (so... treat him really good maybe???)
while for the 2nd... have to give the right response... use the right word... do the right thing... in the right place... at the right time... in a right way... to the right extent... it seems that all depends on luck...

um... well... it's just my sudden feeling... it may not reveal my thoughts in the next minute...

anywayz... there's an optimistic way of thinking on this... he may like u... just that he hasn't realized that himself... maybe...???

although i'm not the optimistic type person... i'm certainly the "late-realizing" type... =P

well... if i have time for writing this kinda generalized stuff... maybe i should try to figure out my thought 1st...

have i realized that now??? maybe... probably... i think so... but I'M NOT SURE yet...

just that i tend to get really frustrated abt other ppl joining the "cycle"... i should probably accept that it may be just the character of the ppl... but if not frustrated... i'm annoyed somehow... >,< i hope that will not develop into aggression (uncontrolled behaviour)... um... sorry... that's a theory for behaviour of dogs and cats... not quite for human... maybe... =P

"staph feeding"

2005-04-21T19:54:00.000+10:00

"staph feeding" is gonna start from tonight...

twice a day... for two wks...

and let's see how they go... =P

hope what's said in the daily horoscope in herald sun will be true... ^_^

and i want the continuation of my dream (which gave me a nice tachycardia as well... =P) this morning!!! =P

CNS deformation

2005-04-19T20:48:00.000+10:00

i think... i've got...

atrophy in tectum (sensory)...

and...

hypertrophy in tegmentum (motor)...

i can't think... can't concentrate on studies...

and i felt like kicking and hitting things... =0

PS... well... finally booked an appointment for my "staph"... =P

some explanation of terms... =P

2005-04-18T20:05:00.000+10:00

i keep on putting on those words which sounded complicated...

just to tell myself that i at least got to know some words in my course... =P (in fact i dun know a thing!!! ='( )

well... i suppose maggot's a nice one start with...

a maggot... means... i think most ppl should know what a maggot is... in our sense... it's just the larva(e) of flies or some other insects or u can say... some other parasites...

"staph"... it's a kinda bacteria... um... since it's on me... i better not to comment too much on it... u may be able to see it's effect on the back of my right ear and on the back of my neck... but apart from that... i'd just say i'm gonna see that doctor for that...

tachycardia... it's stress-induced... as what i've stated in my header... its effect's basically just increased heart rate... sounded very difficult doesn't it??? but... it's actually... very simple...

these three terms... of which i learned from 3 different subjects... parasitology, microbiology and pharmacology... and of coz all of them are veterinary-related...

right... i think that's abt it for the time being... some relaxation after kendo training... and i think i should let my vaio sonnie alone for a while for the antivirus software to scan it...

PS... i think i'm just getting lazy... dun wanna move my hands too much to type chinese... =P

enough of annoyance...

2005-04-17T01:16:00.000+10:00

enough of it... stop annoying me...

well... i think it's just me myself trying to annoy myself...

what am i talking abt???!!! well... probably some 2ndary effects by my stressed-induced tachycardia... (if sb may understand it... =P)

and my "staph"... can't omit them... remarkable disruption on that area... ='( i gotta see the doctor!!! but i have no time!!! ='(

severe disturbance to my CNS...

wow... a parasite attacked by another parasite!!! what a shocking news!!!

i meant to do a bit of work... but haven't done anything afterall...

only achievement was that i went to victoria market for some apples, tomatoes and mushrooms... and a visit to the adorable NSXXX... woo hoo... one of my dream cars...

recalling the unforgettable experience...

nearly got hit by a car becoz i was looking @ the NSX too intensely... without noticing another car on the road... =P how amazing!!! if i really got hit... this can probably be one of the most outstanding reason to get hit by a car... =P

well... i've probably mentioned this story too many times... sorry... probably due to my CNS disturbance...

quitting coffee...

2005-04-15T23:00:00.000+10:00

i think i gotta quit coffee...

addiction to coffee is definitely not good for my health... esp that i suppose my kidneys are not very good...

remembering my superb experience seeing the specialist and doing the ultrasound for my kidneys... >,< felt so stupid... couldn't find anything seriously wrong...

well... now that i haven't drunk any coffee... for 3 days or so...

um... feeling good... not as sleepy in the lectures as i was expecting... =P probably becoz i had more sleep at nights... (i was forcing myself to sleep early... although i was constantly disturbed by phone calls at night... =P)

or it maybe becoz of my preference to certain lectures??? wow... what a saying!!! i never thought that i'll be interested in neuro stuff???!!!

perhaps i'm getting on the way to quit coffee... but on the other hand, i'm certainly on a point of no return... addiction to chocolate...

well... it has been with me for... like... since i started eating chocolate maybe... =P especially my preference to dark chocolate... yum... =P

this seems to be worse than my coffee addiction... sigh... probably i won't be able to get rid of it... as some ppl know how much chocolate i ate that my phone at home has a chocolat-ish smell... =P hard to imagine isn't it??? but it's true... =P

陰差陽錯...

2005-04-14T19:14:00.000+10:00

唉...陰差陽錯...

本來一臉興奮...變成一臉失落...比一開始就沒有更難過...>,<

第一次...

本來佢0係我對面...點知有人返入條隊...唉...全部0的位都轉晒...

無錯...可能我個 position 有好多人都想要...(可以話係肯定有唔少人想要...)但偏偏就唔係我想要0既...唉...

第二次...

到佢已經0係我面前...竟然都可以有人從中作梗...唉...無0野講啦...

之後...

佢唔得閒0既時候...我0地就鬼咁得閒咁等住搵佢...

點知到佢得閒0既時候...我0地又比0的無聊人捉住0左...

唉...灰... ='(

PS...而家隻腳有勁多水泡囉...唉...好痛...仲有...隻手又比人打到好痛囉...尤其某某人囉...=P算...係我自己唔記得戴個 nike 仔仔...

can't think of a title...

2005-04-12T22:35:00.000+10:00

a nice thing abt such a nice day like yesterday is that i suppose there can't be anything worse today...

i probably pass today's test...

i found that there's no test tmr...

i probably got enough sleep after all those disturbance by phone calls when i was on my bed incubating to sleep... (since i got much sleep in the morning which was the time i planned to study for the test... =P with a cycle of 3 mins reading notes and then 15 mins falling asleep on my sofabed... waking up for 3 mins of reading and etc...)

i got an hour early off from uni coz the afternoon 4pm lecture's cancell'd...

i finally got the mood to put smilies on the blog... =P

a nice day that was...

2005-04-11T19:57:00.000+10:00

a nice day that was...

when all these things happen on the same day...

when i dun get the right answer in a MCQ with the two answers being so similar but just that there're one or two extra words in one of them...

when i dun get to pass becoz i didn't know the lecture slides are on the web...

when i dun get to see the person i wanna see when i just wanted a word from him to cheer me up... seriously... any word will do...

when i get to see the one i dun even wanna speak a word to him...

when i have to fight with the person i dun wanna fight with during training...

when i get to know many different versions of the same issue... and that i found it hard to discover what actual incident was...

when i get to a situation where i have no idea who i can trust... leading me to a point that i dun wanna say anything to anybody...

when i still have to study for two tests for tmr and the day after...

when i am gonna have two more nights without good sleep...

seriously... this is a real nice day...

ADDICTED... am I not???

2005-04-08T22:29:00.000+10:00

sigh... i think... i'm addicted...

addicted to coffee... well...

i hate the side effects...

but i need it...

to keep myself awake for lectures or pracs in the morning...

i wonder why i can't sleep at night... then i can't get up in the morning... >,<

yeah... sometimes i just fell asleep at around 6pm or something and woke up at 8pm... of coz i can't sleep at night by then...

but i wonder why i can't sleep even when i got up really early that morning...

sigh... now i think i kinda understand the feeling of addiction to nicotine... maybe... =P coz i dun smoke... and i hope i never will... '~'

addiction to coffee is already beyond my capability... >,<

my way... my parasitic way...

2005-04-08T02:18:00.000+10:00

sorry abt that i always want things to be in my way...

sometimes i felt that i just wanna drag someone to do things in my way... i know... sorry... but i normally didn't realize before i've done it... =P

well... maybe that's why i'm parasitic??? severe irritation to host... haha... my host-->my corolla sonny... gotta bring it for service this wkend probably...

sigh... sometimes my corolla sonny just didn't wanna start working?! =0

or it just doesn't go in a straight line when i release the steering wheel... well... yeah... i know... George (my driving instructor)... at least one of my hands should always be on the steering wheel... but now that i can drive on my own... to be a P-plater... heeheehee... =P

but sometimes... it's just tiring and boring... even when i'm just braking before the lights... that i still gotta hold the steering wheel all the time... =P esp when there's no power steering... =0

um... yeah... i think i may need the left mirror fixed tho... that mirror... i think i broke it the day after i "officially" got my sonny back home... >,< (i've been driving it for some time already...)

that accident probably gave me a nice tachycardia... =P

tel bill... >,<

2005-04-06T01:16:00.000+10:00

sigh... have been receiving 3 tel bills before it is due...

man... pls stop... i'm getting annoyed... and that just doesn't seem like the amount i should be paying for...

i know u're annoyed as well coz i changed company... but then...

just stop it pls... >,<

i changed just becoz ur charge for DSL's expensive...

do something abt it then customers may come back...

just dun do this to irritate ppl becoz u're a big company...

OK???

MY DSL... ='(

2005-04-03T15:58:00.000+10:00

My DSL... i've downloaded like 11.something GB's... now that i've only got 20MB or something life... sigh... ='( i dun wanna go back to the lovely 56.6 Kbps dial-up speed

well... gotta control myself next month... not to get to the limit that early in the month... and now that i've still got 10 days to go with this precious 20MB... >,<

probably can only check my email, write some weblog entries... and my icq, msn and stuff like that... um...

='( i wanna dl...

another pic of a kitten in LSAH... um... this one's probably a DSH i suppose... =P

work experience @ LSAH

2005-03-31T18:36:00.000+10:00

A really cute pic of a DMH in LSAH (Lort Smith Animal Hospital)
special thanx to our photographer... joyce... wow... (applause... =P)
btw... although may not be able to tell from the pic... her eyes are of two different colours...

there are a lot of nice kittens... and there are more nice dishes and trays to wash... haha... =P anywayz... the kittens are just cute... can't resist... really wanna get one... >,<

and in the kennels there are cute dogs as well... our active shih tzu X poodle... what a combination... and i love it when we're washing our "little" lab... just dun shake the water off ya yet... =P

well... more pics to come...

oh... a PS... DMH means... domestic medium hair... ;)
and look at its eye brows: I'm not happy!!! =P

holidays are gone!!!

2005-03-28T18:20:00.000+10:00

sigh... last day of my easter holiday... gotta start working in Lort Smith Animal Hospital for work experience tmr...

oh well... perhaps it's better than doing nothing at home wasting my time... maybe... although i have already finished 2 wks' requirement for urban animal shelter... anywayz... should enjoy seeing more stuff... =P

luckily it's close to home in north melbourne... probably can take bus route no. 11 to get there (walking... ;)) and one of lecturer said we should be able to see plenty in there... so... that should be pretty good... ;)

have to work from 8am to 4:30pm... sigh... how am i supposed to get up in the morning at around 7am(the time i should've slept for only abt 4hrs or so...)???

sigh... anywayz... gotta start switching the time for uni... since we always have monday 9am lectures... :'(

PS... saw the cool NSXXXX again on my way for some shopping... and the way back as well... still cool... although it's somehow got a crash or something...

復活節假...

2005-03-27T14:17:00.000+10:00

放假嘛...又係攤0係屋企...訓到好晏...哈哈...

頹嘛...我都知咁好頹啦...不過咁樣0既生活對一個 vet sci 學生0黎講係好難能可貴0架... >,<

要知道我0地平時差唔多日日都九至五...所以差唔多次次去 kendo training 都遲到...唉...放學返到屋企又咩都唔想做咁...

假期唔代表我0地唔使做學校0的0野0架... :'( 又有 VPH,又有 Microbi...哇...死人啦...一定要0係 kendo camp 之前做完呀...唔係...就凍過水喇... >,<

唉...係近來天氣轉0既關係???鼻敏感好似想發作...成日都好似有鼻水咁...又鼻痕痕咁...哎...煩死... >,<

PS...我另一個都已經寫0左好一段時間0既...
中文 blog... www.xanga.com/cher_v2004
仲有一個英文0既... www.xanga.com/cher_e2004

kendophilus cherrie corollis

2005-03-25T23:31:00.000+11:00

haha...等我0黎解釋一下...呢個 title 0既意思啦...

kendo=kendo
philus=loving

cherrie, my name, genus

corollis=host name, my corolla...

haha...just some stupid interpretation from my parasitology... =P

嘻嘻嘻...睇0黎我真係太掛住劍道啦... =P 上腦...不過講真...每次去完 training...都會覺得好 refreshed...好似讀書都醒神0的咁... ^_^

平衡真係好重要0架...雖然讀呢一科...課外活動0既時間真係唔多...但做0下運動...讀書都精神0的...覺又好訓0的... ;)

而且我一向都鍾意做運動啦...之前0係香港放學日日打排球...有時又打乒乓波,或者羽毛球...唉...無心向學呀真係... =P 結果又唔敢考 A level...form 6 讀完一半就過0左澳洲讀書...

過0左0黎之後都無咩點玩過運動囉... >,< 上年 sem 2 就同一個師兄同一個同學一齊參加0左 kendo beginners' course...之後發覺劍道真係好好玩... ^_^ 而且好能夠改正我0既缺點...;)

希望快0的到下一次 training 啦... ^_^

PS...今日發現到一個無名氏0既 comment...雖然唔知道係邊個...不過應該係UMKC 0既人???其實我由今年開始返學一直都有 keep 住去 training 啦...希望下年都可以... =P well... thanx anyway... =P

kote... 2ndary wound...

2005-03-23T22:29:00.000+11:00

oh well... the kote i'm using for training is hurting me again... at the metacarpophalangeal joint on my left middle finger... >,<

saw a little blood-filled cavity underneath the skin... yuck... =P

"lovely" Anatomy

2005-03-22T22:13:00.000+11:00

trying to study some anatomy for the test on thursday...

can't get anything into my brain though... oh well...

reproductive anatomy... should be the interest of many ppl?! maybe... =P

anywayz... still... nothing much getting into my brain... nah... i'm not particularly interested in it... =P

the only thing i remember is that... the tail of the epididymus looks like a little brain... (no wonder so many ppl say that guy's brain is in... and my own interpretation... that his brain's filled with... =P)

um... getting a bit non-academical there... =P

anywayz... gotta start studying again... to spare time for kendo training tmr... ;)

my Super Corolla!!!

2005-03-20T17:15:00.000+11:00

"have u modified ur car, Cherrie???"

many ppl ask'd me when they 1st saw my car... answer is... nope...

it was the guy who sold me this corolla who've done all this stuff... wheel cover, steering wheel, CD player and what so ever... oh well... they're part of the reason why i love my corolla so much probably... =P

um... some basic info... 1991 corolla sedan... light blue but not too light... as u can tell from the pic probably... 5 speed manual...

distinguishing feature... a little bump in front on the left... severely broken left mirror... (haven't got the money and time to repair it yet... just yet... for more than a yr already... =P)

my wheel cover... if that's what this thing's called... =P

Motor Show 2005

2005-03-19T17:06:00.000+11:00

my beloved maserati... my dream car in my dream...

this yr we're having a vet sci faculty motor show tour in melb... =P with 3 3rd yrs and 2 2nd yrs... ^_^

been to the motor show for the 2nd time... but the previous visit was a bit of a rush... so couldn't manage to see a lot of stuff... (too impressed by one of my "real" dream car the RX-8 maybe... =P)

another inspiration this yr... the Honda HSC concept... wonder if it's gonna be put in the production line... to replace the NSX??? um... i missed the NSX i saw last time so much...>,<

oh well... too much to talk abt... time to get away from this blog and buy stuff in the supermarket then... =P

my 1st post...

2005-03-19T17:01:00.000+11:00

第一個 post 嘛...唔知寫咩好添...

有點無聊...無啦啦發現0左呢個 google support 0既 weblog...
忍唔住手又 sign up 0左...唉...咁多邊寫得晒呢...無救啦真係...

今日...致力於睇劍道 bougu 0既價錢...Koei 0既真係靚好多...但...唉...好貴...都唔知買唔買好...
又唔知可以玩到幾耐...下年又要搬去 werribee...(如果升到班的話...) 就算 training 0既時間無提早...都已經有0的勉強...而家仲改到咁早...唉...點飛車出0黎都唔掂啦...頹...

sigh... so puzzled...
and i miss kendo so much... (this week i had only been to 1 training...>,<)

a little test

2005-03-19T16:48:00.000+11:00

well... just to put this pic on so that i can upload my profile pic on the left... =P